I have been contemplating a lot lately, about life, about loss, about growth, about pain, about change, about seasons, about relationships, about being a mother, a wife, a friend, a daughter, an aunt, and really thinking about what legacy I want to leave and how I show up in this life. I have been on a long journey of self discovery, acceptance, and love. It has taken many twists and turns, and entailed a lot of grieving losses, and coming around to acceptance, which has then lead to a new found freedom that has given me the ability to take new actions and celebrate all of life's joys.
I have had to get really honest about the tape in my head that plays all of the negative messages... There is something to be said when you look in the mirror at yourself and see that little girl looking back at you. When you tell her how valuable and precious she is, its deeply moving. I cried the first time I did this.
This year feels fresh, new, and free... 2017 was extremely challenging on so many different fronts. It does not mean that this year will not be full of challenges, but I am getting my physical health dialed in and really caring for my emotional and spiritual health.. When all three are in balance, I am in the sweet spot of life.
My Affirmations for 2018:
"I am perfectly and wonderfully made."
"I trust myself."
"I am healthy, whole, and complete."
"I forgive myself."
"I receive love effortlessly".
"I believe that anything is possible."
"Life is working for me, and not to me. "
"I am brave."
"I am beauty."
"I radiate Joy."
"I love fiercely."
" I love YOU."
"I am Her."
I have these affirmations on my wall, in my phone, and in my planner.. Each day I look at them and say them multiple times of day... I am shifting the way I see myself and really coming to a place of believing who God has created me to be.
To get to this point I have had to come to place of acceptance that I was stuck and felt frustrated and wanted change. In this place God met me in my heartache and has been so gentle with me as I have pursued change.
When I am so aware of what I need to address and change, there is so much room for different actions to be taken.. It can be hard and messy but so rewarding because of the beautiful growth that takes place. I look back with so much gratitude and have more grace and love for myself today than ever and am in an place of loving the journey and not in a hurry to get to the destination. The key for me is to have people in my life to do this with, that are loving and safe.
This pictures right here is a treasure. I loved my wedding day with my bridesmaids so much. They celebrated me with so much love and support. I felt like a princess and will forever be grateful for each of these women. Each of them played a significant role in my life and have left a huge imprint on my heart. I share this because its so important to surround yourself with people that love you, celebrate you, encourage you and see you when you may not believe in yourself.
Here is a beautiful blend that I call, "I am Enough Blend". I love to use it when I feeling down, or having negative thoughts and just need to pause and reset. I love to apply to the back of my neck, or my pulse points to support self love, and acceptance. I take a 10ml roller and add:
Grapefruit: 24 drops
Eucalyptus: 16 drops
Coriander: 10 drops
Ginger: 6 drops
Cinnamon: 4 drops
Lemon: 2 drops
Lavender: 2 drops
Spearmint: 2 drops
Fill the rest with Fractionated Coconut oil, and enjoy!
My name is Holly Boyer and I am a life long Alaskan, mama of two of the most precious babies, and wife to my soulmate.